I wake up today to find myself alone in the house, its just like in the movies when u feel that when you go out there would be nobody.

It all felt like an illusion to me. I just thought i would be better off without any youth groups. Tired, restless, nothing seem real to me anymore, not even myself.

How can i think of all this when i am an illusion, surely its just an illusion if not i woudn't be here typing this.

If only something i knew is real, all that i have acheive, all that i have done; nothing... nothing seems real. What is wrong with me believing i was an illusion. If only you were there, beside me, nothing could have gone wrong.

What would i do, what would you do in my position, in my shoe. What he would do.

Sometimes believing that everthing around me is real is the real feeling, not an illusion.

I am just nothing but silhoutte imprinted on this earth. Nothing is more important than that. Being yourself, being true, being REAL.